My Friend Tracy

My friend Tracy and I had this much needed conversation about respect(see: respect in relationships; previous blog). I told her about this experience that I'd had with one of my closest high school friends, and how I had to have respect for his priorities. He joined a fraternity, and although it caused tension in our relationship, and our relationship isn't the same to this day, I had to have respect for his aspirations. To a certain extent that just meant stop bitching about our friendship not being what it used to be. But this wasn't a very big deal. I just had to come to terms with the fact that I existed as a part of his 'old' family, and his 'new' family was top priority now.

But a lot of times I feel like those things are lost, sometimes you just have to honestly respect someones wishes, because its just selfishness that drives you to stop a person from doing what they aspire to do, in order to exist with you. Of course any type of relationship needs a certain level of balance, thats something to keep in mind as well. But recognition of someones priorities is a vital part of that. But on the other end there's sacrifice, but thats another blog all together.
So the words of the day are, respect for peoples priorities.
_mC

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Relationships get Ill

Now, anybody who knows me, know thats I know something about relationships. That something, is that I know NOTHING at all. But on a much broader scale of things I do find that I know a lot. Relationships are based off of respect, balance, compromise, and last but not least communication. I feel like these are the most vital parts for any functioning relationship to remain...well..functioning.
And as much as I would love to go and on about love, the relationships I'm referring to need no such thing.
I don't mean like all the boo-lovery kissy faced boyfriend/girlfriend relationships (if you haven't guessed by now) I mean friendships.
::As this 9th Wonder beat chimes in the background...::
I started to think about what relationships are important to me, or better yet, which ones are the most fulfilling and I saw what the ones that weren't were missing.
But i'mma keep it light
This one aint too heavy...
Communication, balance, respect and compromise are the words of the day.
_mC

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They say somethings changed about you...

They say somethings different about you...
and i reply..."It took you that long to notice?"

Taking 'life' inventory like I like to do at certain times, I've realized something. At one point, I'd become just like these girls that I used to make the stink face at for thinking that they were better than everyone because of the brand name that they were wearing. Back in those days it was (more often then not, fake) Burberry, Coach, Gucci, and Prada (did they wear Prada back then?). So While they would prance around like they were the cats meow, I'd think 'how foolish to spend hundreds on a name', and simply keep it moving.

Then at one point during my 18-19 years, I thought it was cool (/Baba Says) to...emulate those attitudes exactly. Being different made me feel good, but being different came with a cost, and now in retrospect, it wasn't being different at all...it was just being ahead of the curve. Although, I do have a certain love for the shoe (skate, streetwear, whatever you want to call it) culture, and the art and fashion, on a certain level...its just lead to materialism.



I looked at the floor of my closet this morning, and felt a certain emptiness that, I assume, often comes with amassing material possessions. Partially because I have ANOTHER pile thats about 1/3rd as big as that sitting at home, and thats not counting the shoes on my feet...or the shoes in the shoe rack to the right of the picture. See the problem yet??

Because of this new insight, I felt like I needed to get rid of everything, purge these things from my life. Yet the people I surrounded my life with had this exact interest. So while they'd blab on about what pair of shoes was coming out, or how much this costs... I only thought about how materialistic people had become. No longer defined by their actions, but by the brand names metaphorically tattooed across their chest, or more fittingly stitched into their soles.

And I became very annoyed simply at the mention of said items. This was a while ago... might explain some trouble a couple of weeks ago, but I'm deviating from the point. *AHEM*

Materialism, no matter how well its hidden, is materialism. So as of now (really a while ago), I'm trying to fill my life with real happiness, happiness that is acquired by accomplishing things, because thats stronger than the short term happiness thats comes with purchasing items.

And with THAT...my blog is back in buisness.
_mC

...

I enjoy being at home...
Not like

But more like...

and

kinda home...

It allowed me some of my own space to write and read in...(Thanks low)

And now I feel reinvigorated to do what I came here to do...


(Well, I mean besides the FAFSA)
and here's a preview of my next preview of my next profile picture:




I love ya'll
_mC
P.S.
Wow THREE(3) appearances by THE Mishka hat.
P.S.
I LOVE IT, When Nikki Jean answers my questions/comments on myspace
<3<3<3!

Feeling blu and Exile'd

In Stereo.



Cold hearted and young...Dumb kid with a gun.
-Blu
_mC

Permanence

I met a young lady with an interesting tattoo/nikki jean-esque quality to her
So of COURSE I took a picture of her foot! lol

I don't know about you...
but I kind of felt forever
when i opened my virgin eyes,
at 1pm this afternoon...
we fell fast...
we won't last...
we still laugh...
we fell fast...
we won't last...
we still laugh...
Por Siempre
_mC

Music and I

WPGC 95.5, at one time was synonymous with all that I understood music as (and WKYS 93.9 when nothing was on 95.5). Family cookouts with that old shit that none of the kids really knew, but we just knew the hooks to those oldies because we used to hear 'em so much. Biggie, Jay-Z, Tupac, R.Kelly, Lil Kim, Naughty by Nature, Fugees, SWV, Missy Elliot and a host of others that escape me right now. That was childhood. Endless songs about love that I couldn't relate to, and songs about a struggle that I didn't understand. I just knew I liked the way that shit sounded and to very little surprise at all, other people liked the way that it sounded as well.
Growing up, I always wrote, but never quite made the connection until middle school, Someone mistook me for writing rhymes, and I was like 'nah, not quite.'
I always thought that you can't even make it to the radio if you aint 'from the streets'...So I never cared.

(and by never really cared i mean wrote average 'nigga' rhymes)

Insert 2003, this song surfaces at about the height of my Clipse fandom called "Through the Wire", I thought it was the most amazing song I'd ever heard in my life. I damn near ran around the school asking friends about it, and this up-and-coming kid named Kanye West. Nobody knew who was talking about, except for Jessica Artis. I recall we'd sit and just talk about how much trouble this guy is going to be, how much we loved the song, and how Roc-a-Fella is doing a damn good job by signing him.
I figured that it was about that time that my life changed. Lowell (thank God) started passing me mixtapes and the rest is history.

I say this to say, This is MY history with music, and why, when given the choice of Kanye or Common, I'm going to roll with Kanye, because Kanye was there at that point in my life to change my view of what music could be. Make Me want to accomplish something. And I say this also to say that music nerds annoy the FUCK out of me.

Music is such a personal experience, so for someone to downgrade your experience because they listened to albums from before they could comprehend words, and all of a sudden this makes them part of the elite 'I Am Hip-Hop' crew, is just ridiculous.


Does knowing a certain set of music mean that you've done anything with your life? Did it inspire you to make positive change? Did saying Lupe owes his life to Midnight Marauders cure HIV/AIDS? How about world hunger? Did it elect a President who has the peoples best interests in mind? Did saying that someones opinion isn't important because they didn't grow up on music that didn't come out around the time they were growing up help YOU establish a comfortable financial situation?

(again)


Music is such a personal experience, so for someone to downgrade your experience because they listened to albums from before they could comprehend words, and all of a sudden this makes them part of the elite 'I Am Hip-Hop' crew, is just ridiculous.

I for some strange reason thought that hip-hop was B-boys and B-Girls, Dj's, Emcee's, Beats, Rhymes,and a lifestyle, because it affected your life...maybe I'm wrong.


_mC


"...is what kept him on track to be a great emcee..."
_Lu