Soo...

the little things have the biggest effects on meh sometimes
that middle child thing man...>_<;;
my psyche...my psychology man...
and me looking out into this abyss aint helping a thing.
I need more stability.
i'm just going to get lost in meditation on it and hopefully it makes me feel better.
seek.
then solve.

peace.



_mC

With Love from mC(2008) / Chill Music(Songs About Jane) (2009) & Thoughts.

Figured I might as well re-post my previous works "With Love from mC" and "Chill Music" (and some thoughts) while I work on my 2 new projects dropping sometime this year.
Hopefully you can see the progression between these 2 projects and I hope that you'll see the continuance of that in my newer projects dropping this year.

With Love, From mC (2008)


Download: http://usershare.net/4fhxbop2sjk4

Tracklist:
1. Leave a message (Twin)
2. Amzing
3. Leave a message (Supreme)
4. mC @ Work
5. MD
6. Leave a message (Mel)
7. Joints
8. Leave a Message (Mouse)
9. Supa mC
10. Roommate Stories
11. Say it Aint So. ft. HB
12. Leave a Message (Styles)
13. Save a Spot
14. Leave a Message (Duraleen / Ice)
15. No Savior


Thoughts:
When I listen back to this project, I remember the super sincere feeling of just wanting to rap. I just wanted to rap and have something to call my own. Having just saved up the $400 required to build me a decent recording set-up from scratch, I did exactly that. Most of these songs are either just one verse or one verse and a hook because I couldn't wait to get these pieces of music out. I didn't even care if they were finished or mixed, I just wanted people to hear what I could do, and get a taste, even if they didn't get the whole entree'. In addition to that, I had randomly recorded all of my messages one day, and realized that they each corresponded to a song and I placed them accordingly. Aside from my recordings in high school (which I vow to never let see the light of day) this is the starting point for all things mC.


Chill Music (2009)


Download: http://usershare.net/gmn6akinll9q

Chill Music.
1. Intro
2. Don't Save Em
3. Falling for a friend / falling in
4. Doing something you regret
5. Missing that person
6. being on some other stuff, acting like you don't care lol.
7. Lost You
8. Don't Care About 'em
9. Occupying your mind with something else completely
10. Sh.Outro

Thoughts:
With this project, I sat for a long time with the collection of tracks that I'd made since the release of 'With Love...' and listened to them repeatedly, and tried to understand what the songs were saying overall, and one day (#whilst) it occurred to me that this set of songs told the story of a relationship, So I sequenced them accordingly.
I wanted to branch out and try things on different soundscapes (Worst Kind of Love) and I also wanted to make more structured songs (Just a Model, College Route) to show that I'd been putting in some technical work as well. I'm usually ultra critical of my stuff, but I think the project as whole represents my emotional states, mindset, and life over the course of the couple of months, and what more could you ask for from a piece of art?
The Bonuses consist of my favorite songs that I didn't think went with the theme/mood of the project. I had to put 'em out cause they were songs that I felt strongly about, so I figured people who listen to my stuff might enjoy 'em.




Hope you enjoy these, I put a lot of work into them.
and feel free to shoot me some feedback so I can make an even better product next go 'round.
'Precciate the love and support.


_mC (make Change*)

Gospel Music

...Speaks to your heart and soul.

Today after work I listened this talked to me.

and here's a video to make todays blog interesting:
[Click here if you can't see the video]



_mC

P.S. Erykah I love it!
R e T U R N o f T h e A n K H 3/30/2010A.D
I even love the energy of the release date.
I see you, Most High.

My G

This is my G, one of the people who give my life meaning.


This is me and my G.


I get to see her this week, and that makes me happy.
Did Christmas come early?

fin.
_mC
even tho' shes blowing me* as of me typing this.
*not like that

Blu/ Talking too Much

Blu


After spending the latter part of my work day with a few cuts from Blu's Below the Heavens, The Lifted EP, and GODLee Barnes'(Blu) Open instrumental LP. I realized that what KanYe West was to my musical tastes, Blu has become.
and by that I mean a rapper/producer who is head and shoulders above the competition as my current favorite artist. Consistent quality work, Constant style evolution and switchage, and prolificness (dictionary.com says that's a word). Not lil Wayne prolific, but I def. don't think he needed to be on the cover of the Vibe freshman issue having dropped several mixtapes and ALBUMS.
long story short... imma fan.
He's inspired a lot of the direction for my upcoming proyecto but I don't wanna talk about that.

dude got it.
fin.

I'm even growing my own version of the Blu Fro.(see what I did there?)


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Talking too Much

I think(fear) that I am becoming the most introverted person I've ever met.
My desire to be with people is dwindling as quickly my faith in everything human.
Its kind of created this odd mental space for me. I feel so far (gone)removed from things that I feel a little like a ghost.
There's only a handful of people who I even feel are worth my words, feelings and thoughts.
Being friendly is painful sometimes.
I should probably just blame my expectations of people, like
with anything and anybody, if you're let down enough you start to just not care.
now combine that with a heart hell-bent on helping (read: saving the world) and what do you get?\
bars like this:
"in this galaxy of conscious minds/ I feel the closest to the edge of the universe
being human hurts, with the spirit of an angel, viewing from high angles..."

&&

thoughts like this:

my desire to speak is at an all-time low.
yet my desire to be heard is at an all-time high


which kind of completely fucks up the whole aspiring hip-hop artist thing but that's another blog(that I'll probably never write).
fin.


_mC

P.S. Niggas be talking too much

The Maker.

I used to be a maker of fools until I became one
or [rather] was made one,
promise I aint the same one
seeing how the days run, just like game
before, I never could complain
until you're in pain, outside of the window pane
wishing for an end to the rain.
eyes left cloudy, and shirts lefts stained.
[heart]broken like a bone, but its a muscle so its strained.
and then I start to think
How many "YOU"'s i'd left the same, or
in the same state.
[now] I promise I can relate
due to a shot of Karma, with a twist of fate....


_mC

What do these lines mean?

What do these lines mean?
"In this galaxy of conscious minds, I feel the closest to the edge of the universe"


spoiler[+]


_mC