Thursday, December 31, 2009

Monday, December 21, 2009

I LOVE/HATE The Narcissism Machine

Narcissism:(def.) -self-love: an exceptional interest in and admiration for yourself;

Now, with myself, there exists this intense love/hate relationship with TWITTER, but for the longest time I could NOT figure out why I'd even describe my relationship with an inanimate object, let alone a social networking website as love/hate.
I mean sure people are annoying as hell, that's a very consistent thing in life, but that never made me NOT want to get on facebook or myspace (maybe the spam on myspace but not the ppl). So what is it about this little twitter box that drives me up a wall?

nothing to do with the blog post

I love the aspect of instant communication with a lot of different people, so for a while I likened twitter to an oldschool* AOL-esque chatroom. Log on. See what people doing, update your followers on what you're doing, interact and take it from there.
From twitter has come plenty of spontaneous meet-ups, LOTS of comedy, news updates, sports scores, award show happenings, up to the minute music drops, and countless other discussions that happen in real-time that allows one to stay up to date on everything that doesn't matter in this world. We get to keep in touch with all of our friends who we can't see regularly and hell we even get to talk and interact with our favorite famous people!

So where does the 'hate' part of the equation come in?

I think it has something to do with a combination of the 140 character limit and the ability to retweet. (someone re-posting what you've posted to show that they agree or display their thoughts on it)

Can you really share an in-depth idea or concept in 140 characters?
Maybe you can share some noble or wise saying, but even that lends itself to the narcissism; cause you really just want your wisdom to be seen, heard and acknowledged.

again, absolutely nothing to do with the blog post.

and thus we've arrived!
It seems like twitter subconsciously enhances the desire to be heard.
What did we do with all of these random and pointless thoughts that occurred before there was twitter?
We kept them to our damn selves**! but twitter gives each and everyone one of us a platform to be heard and this feeds into the DESIRE to be heard, and each retweet is a person in the "audience" reaffirming that someone is out there "listening" to your random thought process, encouraging you to go on and on about whatever it is that you was talking about.

Did I mention that in about 80% of tweets the subject is the tweeter?
"I'm doing this..."
"I think this..."
"My this does this..."
"I, Me, my..blah blah blah"

multiply this time the #ofFollowers and you've got a twitter timeline that often resembles being slapped over the head with a collection of up-to-the-minute autobiographies that you didn't ask for*** in the first place***.
(and for the record I am not claiming to be a saint amongst sinners)
&that shit be annoying love/hate relationship with twitter is explained.
thanks for reading my rant


*feels weird referring to something in the late90's early 2000's as "oldschool"
** or shared with a SELECT group of people ie; friends, someone around you, etc.
*** but maybe you did ask for this by being on twitter?

P.S. now let me go feed The Narcissism Machine so it can poop out the good feelings that come with a comment.


Sometimes Life amazes me
I've been on these spiels about how humping until you shoot off in a girl amazes me in how that makes life or A life, but I guess I'm just amazed by life period.
How do the trillions of atoms in the universe converge in a very specific way to create a conscious mind?
I think being conscious amazes me.
But even more than that, the ways in which humans subconsciously imitate the polar energies within the atoms that our bodies consist of is amazing.
ya know

And all of these atoms which create out conscious minds have been here billions of years before our minds came into existence.
kinda makes ya think.

end train of thought.


Friday, December 18, 2009

This... going to seem random as hell
but my homegirl Blaine has the illest profile picture in the facebook universe right now:

Have a nice day.


Wednesday, December 9, 2009


In order to change who you are
you must become someone who you are not
you must do things that "you" wouldn't do.
things "you" were afraid of doing
things "you" are unaccustomed to doing
conquer fear and pursue discomfort
ask not who you are
ask who have you made yourself into.
change who you are and you'll change your life.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

Poem #1

The winds of change blew and I remained
making me the last leaf sitting high upon his branch of virtue
I changed my mind about being around.
In places of darkness where hope is a memory
make yourself forgotten.


Tuesday, December 1, 2009


New Music project written and recorded by myself
Hope ya'll enjoy!
Chill Music Front Cover
(Click to download)
Chill Music Back Cover
(Click to download)

Production includes:
Drew Kid
Dj Jazzy Jeff
Mark Ronson/Salaam Remi
6th Sense
Haz Solo & June Bug...
and Mash-Up Productions

and I appreciate all the love & support as I grow as an artist.
Hope ya'll enjoy.
& leave some feedback, thoughts, opinions, all that!